Bonjour!
cuando la vida juega en cada letra en cada página Love is like a butterfly. They will come along as we go on but they'll never come back perfectly.
There must be something unusual about it :]
[to navigate click on the grouped words below the picture above.:]
xoxo,
Raissa M
Friday, July 18, 2008
time. @ 9:36:00 PM
No one knows what happens next.
Including me and you,
he or she,
they and us.
What we can feel is only time.
A minute could be a year of waiting.
A second could be a year of suffering.
Today'll past and never come back.
Missing is regreting.
Be thankful for everything you've done.
Bitter-sweet, it's still a memory.
And tomorrow, it's still a mystery.
Do you know?
Blessing comes in every second.
But you won't realize until it's gone.
Tomorrow will be a yesterday
Today is what you have
to make joy or tears.
Love, it will not follow you till' the end.
It will end up the same,
or make up till the end.
Reach your dreams, love will come when it's time.
Time heals everything.
Pray, hope, and face the world.
No one controls you.
It's you, the only one who knows you better than anyone.
One day will come.
The day when you'll regret,
Regret those mistakes you've done.
---
No, it's not too late to apologize.
Who says we can't repeat those sweet memories?
There's still enough time to repair.
---
Be thankful for what you have now
and
Don't be afraid to leave love,
it'll come when it's time
:]
by Raissa M
xoxo,
Raissa M
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
MOS; second day @ 6:34:00 PM
Currently listening to: Shaggy ft. Sean Paul- Hey Sexy Lady Just Blaze Remix
Current mood: tired :(
Journal:CAPEK banget! Hahaha. Gue hari ini larilari, jualan sapu, ngurusin anak2... NgeMOSin ank2... ngasih tau blabla, dikejar2 tanda tangan... capedee.. huhuu. andaikan ga jadi osis pasti gw lgi belajar ga ketinggalan pelajaran hahaha.ya begitulah.. ga nyangka udah klas 9. dan gw masuk 9.1 heheh. tpi ga sekelas sama cilo. dia masuk 9.2 aduh itu mah sengaja dipisah. gw sekelas sama Besok masih ngmos.. males banget. tpi seru sih.. tpi yg ini mah anak2nya bener2 pd kecil2.... yg rere sama ike. hahaha. cowonya yg asik cuma si adit & joshua. yg laen biasa aja sih.. hmpf.
tingginya 160 aja langka kali -_- hahahaha.. (ga ada yg cakep) hahahahha. capede... ya begitulah... ohiya and last but not least, wali kelas gue si SUHENDA lagi. -_- pasti tiap senen suru priksa kuku lah baju lah -_- sedih banget yah.. huhu. udah ORnya teh pelajaran 1&2... kenapa gak 3&4 aja.... huhuhu.. ya nasib lah... yaudah deh thatha blogg
xoxo,
Raissa M
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
getting better? @ 6:08:00 PM
Currently listening to: Tamia - Officially Missing You
Current mood: kenyaaang :)Journal:Sigh. There's still bits of yesterday's. I'm really getting insane about all of these things. Today, I went to Ekalokasari Plaza. I was so bored at that time. My driver & mom went to Jakarta. I can't go anywhere. My boyfriend was there. He asked me whether I wanted to join him. Then I agreed and he picked me up directly. I haven't done anything yet. Even showering. haha yeah... Then I jumped out of my bed and "
mandi kilat". I don't know how to say that in English :p.
We met my boyfriend's friends and Reginaaaa :) We weren't planning actually. But yeah. We talked for like 10 minutes then I gotta go.
Those things are still haunting me. Well, maybe my friends are right. I know I can do it. :) allright people i gotta go :p byebye...
xoxo,
Raissa M
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
5W & 1H @ 8:44:00 PM
Currently listening to: Fixing a Broken Heart - Vanessa's blog
Current mood: TiredJournal:What has happened? Everyone tried to influence me to believe in my boyfriend. Well, I know I should. But, it came again. Those feelings. Those unstable feelings. I can't do this anymore. I don't even know whose right or wrong. Everyone has proves. Including them. The "E" texted me again, he does say those things. The things that has broken my heart a few months ago. How could this be? How can I get out of this world? This suspicious things. Whom can I blame on? Who's telling lies? Who's actually wrong?
When will this end?
Why did he do that?
Who's right or wrong?
Where's that "E" man?
Should I believe in him?
What's going to happen next?
Should I leave it all just like this?
How could I face this mystery world?
--------------------------------------------------
tell me why?
tell me how?
tell me what?
tell me when?
tell me where?
tell me who/m?
:: Why can't I just have fun like the other girls did?
:: Why must I face this thing twice?
:: Why can't they just leave me alone without breaking my heart?
:: Why do they have to break my heart again?
:: What have I done wrong?
:: What's going on actually?
:: Why is there no actual proves neither reasons.
:: Why God sent me into this kinda drama?
Well, it's not that I don't wanna believe in anybody. But they have the same proves. It's just so hard for me to make a decision. Life is full of choices. I know that. But why should this happen again? He came again, he did the same thing and the E came again and did the same thing as well. This is confusing. I should find the answer sooner or later. Well, maybe, sooner the better ;)
Officially Missing You - Tamia @ 8:08:00 PM
All I hear is raindrops falling on the rooftop
Oh baby, tell me why’d you have to go
‘Cause this pain I feel it won’t go away
And today I’m officially missin’ you
I thought that from this heartache, I could escape
But I’ve fronted long enough to know
There ain’t no way
And today I’m officially missing you
Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I-I’m officially...
All I do is lay around, 2 years full of tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don’t even know you at all, I don’t know you at
all
Well, I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it’s safe to say, baby, safe to say
that I-I’m officially missin’ you
Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I-I’m officially
Well, I thought I could just get over you, baby
But I see there’s something I just can’t do
From the way you would hold me
to the sweet things you told me
I just can’t find a way to let go of you
Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I-I’m officially...
It’s official
Hoo, you know that I’m missin’ you, yeah, yes
All I hear is raindrops, oh, yeah
And I-I’m officially missin’ you
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Cinta Tanpa Cinta @ 10:21:00 AM
Currently listening to: Shaggy - AngelCurrent mood: bingun, sebel, kecewa, sakit atiJournal:It's Sunday, 6th July 2008. And there's still no answer. ohiya, gw bikin puisi lho.. jelek sih tp maknanya dalem hohoho..Cinta Tanpa Cinta
karya Raissa M
Kurasakan pedih ini
Hati yang resah
Tak henti gelisah
Meleburkan segala cinta
Menanti arti sebuah kata
Haruskah kubertahan?
600 hari kuterdiam menahan
Wajah kosong kau buat dusta
Hingga fajar menyingsing
Ku kan tetap bertahan
Layaknya sebatang kayu di tengah ombak
Kau buat aku tersipu malu
Kuterbang ke langit yang tinggi
Tak sadar smua itu dusta
Berperan tak pernah rasakan
Kujatuh karna sayap yang terluka
Apakah kau tahu?
atau sekedar berperan?
Kuterdiam di sini
Memendam perasaan
Melawan luka ini
Tak tahan sembunyi air mata
Biarlah kuterdiam
Menanti arti sebuah kata
Menanti hingga debu berbisik padaku...
----------
Jelek ya? hahahah. gw buatnya jem 3 pagi. Kepikiran, ga bisa tidur jadinya buat gituan deh. Hmph... Gw masih belom dapet jawaban dari semua pertanyaan gw. Semuanya ngebuat gw bingung. Siapa sih yang bener? again... I dont know who to believe in, who to blame on. Semuanya bikin bingung, pusing. huhu...
Thaaaaa
xoxo,
Raissa M
Saturday, July 5, 2008
<~3 @ 11:41:00 PM
Currently listening to: Seventeen - Selalu MengalahCurrent mood: sakit atiii <~3Journal: haduhh, bete banget nih hari.. pdhal kmrn seneng bgt bru bli hp and now.. it seems to be a nightmare.. ada yang bilang gini ada yg bilang gitu... i'm not sure wif my own feeling now. gw bener2 gak boleh lagi ngikutin hati. hmfh... the "e" sms gw..... and yeah it started to be like the first time on 7th April 2008. kecwa banget nih gw..... huhu.. semua orang nanya kenapa but i really can't tell. gw cuma bisa diem and pretend that i'm okay. padahal sakit banget. lagian bagus juga walopun pretending tpi gw jd gak ganggu hati orang2. hahaa. cuma cecil yang tau now.. and she's really mad at him.. really, i'm not in the mood now.. jdi maaf yaa blognya pendek banget. lagi curhat sm deyrian juga nih.. huhuu. thaaa. see ya when i feel betterxoxo,
Raissa M
Thursday, July 3, 2008
love again @ 8:41:00 PM
Currently listening to: NothingCurrent mood: SleepyJournal:Hey, blog! I've just arrived home from a quick dinner with boyfriend :D I'm actually sleepy but yeah... The electricity went off and my boyfriend went swimming wth his friends. He was asking me to join but I wasn't in the mood. So, this is what I am now. Nothing to do (again). What a useless holiday I might say. Hmm, tomorrow will be Arna's birthday. My boyfriend's ex. I think I've talked about her last month on my blog. Yeah, she's actually kind but she still has feelings for my boyfriend. And, umm, well, what I can say is me and my boyfriend had a i mean fight(s) like 80% was all about her. I don't wanna talk about this, really. But if you wanna know more, you may ask me. I'll tell you, but it depends who you are :p. But yeah, she actually did that for good. I'm not blaming her, I thank her so much :) Okay, let's discuss another topic...It's July, hey, you know what. Time goes so fast. It's just like a wink. Two years I've studied there. I got friends, best friends and even boyfriend and so much memories we've spent together. Especially on April 2008, when I broke up for an unreasonable reason. Hahaha. But yeah, I spent my time with my friends and we shared things. And what I felt was, it was like the first time we had a special talk in Mansha's car. What I mean by special is that we cried together, and it was really so dramatic. Yeah, and I guess you know what it was about. LOVE. Sure thing. Nothing hurts the most more than LOVE. When you're ready to love someone, you're ready to lose him too. So, just don't fly away too high when you're in love, cos you will have so much pain when falling. Okay, the quote isn't as good as its meaning. Hahaha. Yeah, my English is getting worse each day. My parents even ask me to join English tuitions. But yeah... I'm too lazy to get one hahaha. Okay. I think that's enough for the day. Thanks for reading and sorry for my grammatical errors :pxoxo,
Raissa M
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
missin' friends @ 8:27:00 PM
Currently listening to: Nelly - In My Life, Wadsyaname
Current mood: BT abis.
Journal:
...
Nothing special happens. I was actually planning to go to Jakarta with my boyfriend, Rendy, Hendry and the others and after that we'll be going to Cimory. But it was
CANCELED. Huhu.
I woke up at 7. Then, I went to have tuition at 9. I've waited for like 30 minutes and the teacher didn't appear. He forgot and he asked me to come back at 11. Okay, I went back home and I had my breakfast.
I spent my whole day watching TV. From 1 o'clock till 7. Hahaha. See. Nothing special.
Ehiya, I wanna thank you for the peeps who've prayed for my report card on my weeks ago's blog hahahah. :)
I truly miss my friends.. my 
friends :) Tomorrow we're planning to watch movies... I mean movie. Hahaha. Rere, Vena and me. Or maybe with Cecil if her parents allow her.I'm so speechless now. My mood is unstable. So borrrinnggggggg. Like nothing else to do except something to do wif the comp. Ohyeah, I'll have to read those papers the tuition gave me yesterday and start practicing my gtr thingy.. Hmph..I got to go.. Bye peeps:)xoxo,
Raissa M
